If you are trying to understand energy and find yourself lost, I would suggest starting out with baby steps. You can read all you want, and it depends on how you learn, but (at least for me) 'knowing ' something versus 'getting' something are worlds apart.
The Aha moment.
I read a ton on energy and yes, it made sense. I understood. I learned. But it wasn't until I experienced it that I really GOT it.And then after that the learning curve really shortened!
A great beginning is learning and then experiencing how to ground.
There are many ways to ground, probably as many as people, this is the way I was taught.
GET INTO A COMFORTABLE POSITION AND TAKE A FEW DEEP, CLEARING BREATHS. WHEN YOU FEEL YOUR BREATH DEEPEN AND BECOME STEADY, IMAGINE TWO RED BALLS ABOUT TWO FEET BELOW THE GROUND. REALLY SEE THEM, SEE THEIR COLOR, IS IT MORE RED OR MORE ORANGE. SEE THE TEXTURE, ARE THEY RUBBER OR ARE THEY SMOOTHER AND SHINY? NOW VISUALIZE YOUR FEET CONNECTING TO THE RED BALLS WITH ROOTS, A BEAUTIFUL GOLD THREAD OR ANY OTHER IMAGE THAT WORKS FOR YOU. DON’T WORRY IF YOU ARE LYING DOWN VERSUS SITTING DOWN, THE PHYSICS OF HOW THESE BALLS CAN CONNECT TO YOUR FEET ARE A MOTE POINT. JUST GO WITH IT!
IN A MOMENT OR TWO YOU SHOULD START TO FEEL YOUR FEET TINGLE. YOU ARE GROUNDING RIGHT NOW, IN OTHER WORDS, CONNECTING TO THE ENERGY OF THE EARTH. THIS IS GOOD!
THIS IS GROUNDING. IF YOU GET INTO THE HABIT OF PRACTICING THIS WHENEVER YOU FEEL OVER WHELMED BY EMOTION, YOURS OR OTHERS, SITUATIONS OR EVENTS.....YOU WILL DEVELOP THE ABILITY TO SEE YOURSELF AS APART FROM EMOTIONS AND EVENTS. WHEN YOU GROUND, YOU CONNECT TO THE ENERGY OF THE EARTH. YOU ARE THEN CONNECTED TO AN ENERGY THAT IS A GREATER AND HIGHER VIBRATION THAN YOURSELF, SO WHEN YOU ARE FEELING OVERWHELMED BY EMOTIONS, FEELING OR EVENTS, YOU CAN START TO SEE, ONCE CONNECTED TO THE EARTHS ENERGY, THAT YOU ARE NOT THE EMOTIONS, FEELINGS OR EVENTS THAT YOU ARE EXPERIENCING AND WILL BE ABLE TO LET THE EMOTIONS/FEELINGS JUST FLOW THROUGH YOU. OVER TIME, THIS GROUNDING WILL BE AN AUTOMATIC HABIT TO EVENTS.
This experiencing grounding and a stepping aside from entangling your sense of self with your feelings is a powerful experiencing of energy. It is a great place to start, it might provide you with your own "Aha" moment!